JH Wong

王傑你是我胸口永遠的痛

2012-02-11T10:57:00.000+08:00

2012-02-11T10:50:00.002+08:00

Was sitting in during fridays worship.
The song was play in the background.
It somehow hurt me.
My step's just stopped.
It's been along time i felt this way.

Was think how much YHWH love me.
But how much I disapoint HIM.
Is what I doing correct?
It's a hard choice.
But i just that few 10-15min really made me think how much I should look forward to.

When one who do not want to let go.
For what reason I should hang on.
Why should I hurt myself.
When you dun even care.
A friend I am to you, A friend I'll be to you.

2012-02-10T09:53:00.002+08:00

I just don't understand why ppl have to just avoid or even sit on the problem when they face it.
The ans i get will alway be.
Some other reason lahz. dunno lahz.

So wheres the might GOD you believe in?
The only reason will be there is no other reason why GOD will not help you.
The main problem is you. YES YOU!

You rather hurt those who love you.
You rather hurt those who care for you.
You rather hurt those who worries for you.

You will have to need to step out of the pool of shit.
You don't need time to think about it.

Maybe those ppl who love you, care for you and worries for you should do less or never dun care.

2012-02-09T14:30:00.000+08:00

Looking for a reason to smile again. ),:

2012-02-07T20:17:00.000+08:00

Barry Manilow - Can't Smile Without You

2012-02-05T20:46:00.000+08:00

2012-02-04T22:38:00.002+08:00

Hmmmmm.

Planning to get,

This:-

Nor

Both look save.
Think onli 125cc.
Will like take forever to reach where i want to reach but at least i have something to travel with. (((=

2012-02-02T11:30:00.002+08:00

Somehow I wish I was the 1.
The 1 to be there.
The 1 that can do alot of thing.
If only YOU ans my prayer.
If only YOU listen.
I wouldn't be who I am today.

Looking back from last year and what I am now.
It's only a few weeks.
But I am no longer the Jiahui I use to know.
1 with great ego
1 who don't care.
1 who live for the day.

But there is still this small little Jiahui deep down still wish all this would not happen
He wish that everything can be change. :'(

2012-02-01T14:42:00.001+08:00

2012-02-01T14:31:00.000+08:00

Chord

Note

品冠 - 我以為

2012-01-28T12:59:00.000+08:00

Hmmmm!!!!!!!!!!!

Mariah Carey & Whitney Houston - When You Believe [official video]

2012-01-28T11:52:00.000+08:00

2012-01-28T11:09:00.002+08:00

I'm very just very tired.
Tired of waking up in the night looking at my phone waiting for something to happen.
It will not.
And will never happen.

If it does things change.
I'm not longer me.
A totally new me.
I will do what my ego tells me, never by all means to be hurt physically or mentally.
Safty is no longer in my dictionary.

Sometime when i look in the mirror when i wake up or go for gym i dun even know who is in there.
Some point of time in life you will just get lost.
Think back for the pass few month I really dunno why i did does thing.
Am I going to carry on with my life full of regret or isit right to live your life to the fullest??

Well end of the day I think as long as I'm happy with what ever decision I choose.
It will be fine/alright. ((=

2012-01-26T10:24:00.002+08:00

What was I think for the very moment.
Nut.

2012-01-22T00:47:00.000+08:00

LLaaalaaalalaaaa~~~~~~~~
(((=

2012-01-11T16:37:00.002+08:00

Suddenly have this crazy thought that came into me.
To quit my current job and go to a fast food outlet and work and earn $6.50~$8.50 an hour.
Am i out of my mind????

1) Mac
2) KFC
3) MOS
4) Long john.
5) NTUC

I guess it's a less stressful place and you get to have free meal everyday plus discount if you buy stuff from the outlet.
Whaz-uppppzzz

2011-12-13T15:32:00.002+08:00

It's been awhile since i express myself.

I am totally speachless and disapointed.

To You.
It's been a hard choice for you.
You may think nobody understood you, but I am always there behind everytime.
All good thing will always come to end end when 1 who don't treasure.
It's time to let go and move on, before things get worst again.
I may have love you so much and never have love others that much.
But i will still learn to move on.
You already have what you always wanted.
You already have what you asked for.
You already have everything.
I'm really happy for you.

Thank's for everything.
Thank's for letting me love you that much.
Let me keep the good memories that I will never find it again.
No matter what happen I will never be the same again after what happen.

Dear Father,
Hear your child's prayer. Let the hurt no long be hurt.
For you are the might O'lord that heals all illness.
Hear my cry. Let the tears be tears of joy.
For O'lord you send your own son to die for me.
Hear the broken heart. Let it be a heart full of love.
For O'lord you loved me first.
Forgive what ever I have done in the past.
For I'm a sinner.

Renewal me as the bibles said: Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here!
Let me be renewal with a full heart of worship and joy.
Guide me through the darkness.

Thank's for hearing your child's prayer.
In my might Lord GOD I jiahui prayer...... AMEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-12-06T13:00:00.002+08:00

It's only going 1300hrs.
And i feel so screwed up today.

Was cleaning my office alone.
And I alone have to clean the shit really shit with rat and dunno what shit.
And 1 word from my boss i have to do this and there.
So i guess this is life.

I learned alot the past weeks.
If you have a problem dun run away face it.
Why are you running???
For your GOD is not there for you???
You have fear in what you trust???

So i will not run away from problem i should face it and life it too the fullest.
Why angry when you still have to finish what is leave not done.

Fingers cross, praying hard.

2011-12-05T09:53:00.002+08:00

Someone once ask me what's my BMI.
My reply to him was i am over weight.
But BMI is just a guide line.
But i dun follow guide line, I follow my EGO!!!!!
I am just a little boy with great ego.

Guess no one can stop my ego or what I'm doing now.

2011-11-29T11:55:00.002+08:00

Really had a great Sunday.
The only time I really felt the present of GOD.
The smile was bottom the heart.
LOVE the feeling alot.

To Passerby:-
The biblesay: ask and you will be given, seek and you will find knock and the door will open.
So what does this mean?

2011-11-20T14:38:00.003+08:00

I have stop praying, Coz I never believe.
I have stop seeking, Coz I'm very disappointed.
I have stop worshipping, Coz I am no longer worth to praise YHWH.

It's not an easy road ever since last year.
High's and down is no longer the cup of tea I like.
Father YHWH, YOU say ask and I will give. Seek and I will find knock and the door will be open.
It's a promise you make and recorded.
But.......
Why do i always cannot get what i pray for.
I am very tired.

U made me do what people think is correct but not what you know is right.
And to them I am just like an anti-Christ.

Really wanna wave my white flag and just do what I am told too and not even care.
It's really a shit place down here.
Could you just take me around from where I am now.
I am really tired.
I see not goal nor aim in life.
I really wanna rest in your present.

Father YHWH hope you really see what I am going through.
Hope you hear my prayers.
Hope you care for me.
Hope you see the tears that round out of my eyes.

The smile is no longer from the heart.
Father YHWH I really need you.
Hope you are not that busy to stop caring of a little person like me.

2011-11-17T11:05:00.002+08:00

Things always dun end what I alway wanted.
Guess the reason being I'm the only son/kid and i alway get what I want.

What is life all about?
I suddenly thought of that.
Life is noting with out any aim/goal.
So whats next?

I really dunno.
I am so bloody hurt.
I guess I should be happy for you are happy too. ((=

Will I really dunno what I'm doing now.
There is no more aim or things to look forward for.
All I'm looking forward for is just PAY-day and pay my bills and it goes on.

So ask yourself what do you really want in life before you become like me.
A smile on the face with pain in the heart.

2011-11-03T17:17:00.003+08:00

I always thought.
Ya.
I thought who confirm??
What ever.
Everything will stop from this very moment.
And the line have been drawn dun step on it.

Life will change.
No matter what happen it's my choice like how you choose yours.
It have got noting to do with you nor you.
Keep your hands off my problem or it will become yours.

Is being nice a bad thing?
Nope, But when you climb over the top of my head that is when the fun starts.
You are just asking for trouble.
I promise you.
I will give you HELL.

I can so feel myself now back in the early days.
Wahowwwwwwww!!!!!

2011-10-27T17:53:00.002+08:00

I really feel like an asshole.

If it's your mistake then face it.
Why ask me clear for you.
What on earth. _*_ (staying PG)

And you can just happly forget me in your send all list.
I am really speachless now.

Think this will be the last month.
Will get do some stun.

2011-10-21T15:50:00.002+08:00

Hear this when I was driving.
See the tears roll
Hear the heart broken.

But who knows who cares.
Life still goes on.

I guess it was a wrong move to text you.
Coz there will never be a reply.

2011-10-12T19:54:00.003+08:00

It have been afew months since i change my job.
I always thought i am good in what i am doing.
But i was wrong.
My review was very bad too me. ))=
Guess it's time to start changing.
Be who am I, dun be what others want you to be.
Everyone have their rights to say and do thing good or bad about you.
But the important is how you look at thing's.

I had a crazy dream the other night.
I was trying to erase 1 small circle on a pic of paper.
I used up the eraser and strenght to remove the circle, but the circle was still there.
What was leave was all the leave over of the used eraser.

What does this dream all about.
Does it have a meaning in it???

When there is a wrong doing, how hard you try to cover the mark is still there.
No matter what is it.
YHWH is there for you and me.
Have your faith not in yourself nor your cell/church leader.
YHWH never fail you.

No matter what happen or had happened.
Lets worship as one.
Give thanks.

2011-09-18T22:46:00.002+08:00

I am very disappointed!!!

After what happen is this what you want???
I guess, I already got my ans.
I will just be a book with nice cover.

Disappointed!!!!

2011-09-15T14:41:00.002+08:00

It's been awhile.
Hope everyything goes well.
For YHWH my GOD have perpare everything for me.

How long can one who hold on to feelings?
For YHWH know's the limit and HE have no limit.
Coz there will be something greater then what i have now.
As i live in the city of YHWH who prove and protect coz there is no one better then who HE is.

2011-08-09T22:48:00.002+08:00

When loneliness strike that is when sinner sin.
Only life with YHWH is never empty.

It's been 9 months.
Have been an ostrich never one to face the problem.

Till this few day's when i was talking to someone and he actually asked why is he/her on this earth.

I have set my dateline and it have passed the due date.
Time to seek HIS kingdom.

2011-07-21T23:37:00.002+08:00

Human are always human always comparing.
Always looking back at what they have before like the Israelite always thinking and complaining how good is life when they are in Egypt.
They knew there is a GOD a GOD so powerful no other idol can stand before HIM.

I am also one of them, one of the Israelite.
I already have what i wanted and so happy with it.
But somehow or other the emptiness no outside can see.

I when to bedok jetty some random night.
Was sitting face the sea it was dark not much light out there.
And behind me was all the HDB.

An image can to me.
The HDB is like what the Israelite have their family their blood and sweat.
It's a land of joy and pain.

And the open sea is what YHWH promise.
A promise that have no full-stop.

I don't think those image can be explain by words.
But it's a nice place to do QT.

2011-07-21T23:25:00.002+08:00

Blow blow.
It's very dusty.
Hmmmm. I don't know if anyone is still using blog.
Hear from friend they have some place you can twitter and blog at the same time.

It have not been going well for the pass few month even since i received a very disturbing msg.
Will not go into detail about that.
As there is no point.

Ever since what happen last nov the JIAHUI, i know is no longer there.
Jiahui use to be alway looking on the bright side and not the backside.
When the sky fall Jiahui will round over it and have fun and not scram for help.
Smiling and disturbing others is always fun and not trying to hook them in their words.

Have Jiahui grown?

Drop by fb and my tears almost round down.
Well I should be happy.

Who can understand all this??
Father YHWH you promise not to hurt your children as much as your can bear.
I guess this is how you feel when you send Yeshua and nail him on the cross.
You knew this will happen but why you just let it happen?

2011-06-03T17:21:00.003+08:00

How long more can I take it?
How much hope am i putting in?
Why is it always like this.
Someone has to be disappointed.
And it has to be ME!!!
I am giving myself 30 more day's.
1 July 2011.
Tt's it.

2011-05-21T02:21:00.002+08:00

Have been praying for a path.
A path that lead's me to so place that I really want to.
But now i'm at this path that lead's me no where.

When i sang God will make a way when it seen to be no way.
But..... where isit?
Is it there?

Lord I really wanna know where is the path.
Lead me.
Show me.
Hear me.
Listen to me.

2011-02-11T16:46:00.002+08:00

After so long.
Think 3 years already.
I have sin again and again.
I have done what was wrong.
I stop following what is right and seek my own way.
YOU seen my tears.
But you still forget and LOVE me like no others.

It's time to grow.
No matter what happen it already happen for a great reason for I do not know.
YOUR Promises never fail.
YOUR Blessing never stop.
My cup will never be empty.

2011-01-12T11:21:00.002+08:00

How stress can life be?

Working and studying at the same time.
I always thought it was easy to do many thing at one go.
But i was wrong.
Even if it's fun some where back there is still tired.
Well this is what i choose so this is what i get.

When kite flying last Friday.
Was like my very first time fly a kite since i was in BCS around 11 year old.
Plus it was at night.
Get fun.
Some fun need to pay alot to enjoy but some need to spend some cash to enjoy.
Great fun with great ppl.
And spending very little.

Life is like a kite.
You fly and fly where the wind brings you.
You maybe hook on to something and must know when to let it go.

So in fly is not about fly how high and how far.
It's where you are going.
Are you at the right spot at the right time.
Are you doing the right thing at the right time.
Is it time yet?

It's time to go just let it go no point pulling.
You will end up have a rope burn.
There are greater things that GOD want us to do.
Seek and you will find.
Ask and you will be given.
For the Lord LOVE us.

2010-12-21T11:47:00.003+08:00

Do you feel like stopping at some point in your life and never let the time past.
Doyoufeellikehavingmorespaceinlife?

How does it feel like to be dump and push away like a trash.

Alway waking up hoping something good will happen.
Before sleeping hoping tomorrow will be better then today.

See someone happy but is another's pain.

BUT.........

Slowing down in life and picking up the speed to know HIM better.
There are alway room and space for HIM.

Someone trash is others treasure.

Thankful that i still can wake up.
Praise the LORD that could sleep at night.

That is how Jesus die for ME.

Everything that happen is a learn in life.
Should not just stop the watch press it and carry on.
Life is never fair.
Why should i care so much about fairing or unfair.
Does it really matter if i have or know the ans to the prob i'm worry?

Think i should be worring about how to pass my account testes and going back to school.
Stopping facebooking is the very first step for improving.
What next?
It's going to be end of the year.
Should starting listing what's for next year.

1) Getting my very first Diploma in Accounting and Business.
2) Learning the volin.
3) Finish the bible once.
4) Bring at least a someone or anyone to church.
There are still many many stuff i want to do this up coming year.
But are they meaningful?

A qus to think about this few day's.

2010-12-14T23:16:00.002+08:00

Finally i have sometime for myself.

It was like yesterday i when north light school for 3 day.
Waking up early in the morning pulling myself to kallang's mac to have breakfast.
Then facing 12-15 JIAHUI.
Tiring to be nice treating them nice.
Those were the day.

Now i know how it feel's to take care of myself year's ago.
I dunno how the teacher's do it.
But great job.

Have you even feel like being nail on the floor and can not get up cannot catch any air.
The moment you open your eye you feel like crying.
When you close your eye's and being alone you feel lonely.
It's been awhile since i felt like this.
The prayer, The Faith, The Hope.
Is like never been found in me again.

The World, The Stuff, The Fun
Is around me.

I guess it's time to start a new leaf.
There are always other choice.

2010-12-14T00:51:00.000+08:00

It's this song again.
It never leave my mind after that day.

2010-12-12T22:19:00.003+08:00

You Are My SunShine

You Are My Sunshine
My only sunshine.
You make me happy
When skies are grey.
You'll never know, dear,
How much I love you.
Please don't take my sunshine away.

This song is should be a happy Nursery Rhymes.

But when i was listening to my friend play this song just now.
My heart broke.

YOU were my sunshine
my ONLY sunshine
You use to make me happy
When bad day's
YOU never know this,
How much i LOVE YOU.
Please dun take my SUNSHINE away.

Where is my SUNSHINE?
That only SUNSHINE
That makes me happy
When even i'm down

Does it really matter now?
(:
I guess no already.

My purpose of being here is not to worry or cry over leave over milk.

Rom 12:3
For by the grace given me I say to every one of you: Do not think of yourself more highly than you ought, but rather think of yourself with sober judgment, in accordance with the faith God has distributed to each of you

You are who you are for a reason.
You are part of an intricate plan.
You are a precious and perfect unique design,
Called God special woman or man.
You look like you look for a reason.
Our God made no mistake.
He knit you together within the womb,
You're just what he wanted to make.
The parents you had were the ones he chose,
And no matter how you may feel,
They were custom-designed with God's plan in mind,
And they bear the Master's seal.
No, that trauma you faced was not easy.
And God wept that it hurt you so;
But it was allowed to shape your heart
So that into his likeness you'd grow.
You are who you are for a reason,
You've been formed by the Master's rod.
You are who you are, beloved,

Because there is a God!"

JiaHui stop it,
Why are you doing this?
Can you stop all this.
The only Sun & Shine is no long 437.
The only Shine i can see is the one inside me.
JiaYou. (:

2010-11-28T12:42:00.002+08:00

What is the purpose of me being on earth?
It's much more greater than my own personal fulfillment,
My peace of mind, family,
My career, even m dream and ambitions.

The purpose i'm here is for HIM
I born by HIS purpose and for HIS pupose.

Ialway seacrch for my purpose of life and puzzeled over everything that happen to me.
I got my ans why i could not find the purpose in my life.
Coz i alwa ask self-centered qus like,
What do I want to be?
What should i do with my life?
What are he goals andambitions?
Do i have a future?

But focusing on myself will never reveal my purpose of life.
The Bible say's, It's God who directs the lives of his creatures.

I guess my cell alway say this who you want your life to be?
Work hard for it.
Who wouldn't mind having extra cash?
Who wouldn't mind having seafood for breakfast lunch and dinner?
I don't mind too.

So what if i have everything i wanted.
The world is mine.
I'm king of t world.
Thing will be very diff for me.
So what?
In christ all the power and wealth is noting.
Poops.

Lord
Help me be more strong.
Help me not be so self-centered.
Help me be more love able to others.
Lord
YOU are my hope my pillow.
Thank's for loving
Even when i sin.
Thanks' Lord for what happen to me the pass few month.
You never let me die.
I will not disapoint you.
Will stay at stong for YOU.
Thank' LORD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-11-24T12:33:00.002+08:00

It's another day at the same place again.
Does it really matter?
Yes.
It really do.
):

2010-11-23T23:47:00.003+08:00

It's day 2.
1 more day to go.
JiaYou.
Please do not stun.
Do not live with the past.
As the past is already not going to be your future.
It will never be any more.
Let it go.

2010-11-22T22:44:00.002+08:00

Lord, YOU are really the biggest joker i know.
1 day is already very painful
i have to go there for 2 more day's.
AAAAARrrrrggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg

Pain pain pain.

Wong JiaHui
Stop living in pain.
Why am i living in pain when .......................................................
Looking forward for tml.
JiaYou.

2010-11-22T19:05:00.002+08:00

Rate for the day.
1-10
I get it 2.

Did some last min changes
Do really like it when i hear where i was going today.
After work still when to the most dun loved place for me.
Why??

God you are joking with me right.
What do you want me to bring home today?

Do you still LOVE me Lord?
Do you even LOVE me?

2010-11-21T07:20:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggy,

Mode of today morning.
1-10.
I'm giving 4.

Had a wired dream last night.
Lord teach me how to let go.
I'm holding on to everything.
Too use to it.
Worldly stuff really great.
But Lord but i believe in YOU there are more great stuff prepared for me.

You hear my cry.
Why am i crying?
Lord i'm tired of all this up and down in the world.
Lord what i want is to have a up and up life in YOU.
The cut is so deep that Lord only YOU can see.
Lord heal the hold.

Remove me from all this worldly stuff.
I want to commit myself to You.
Use me.
Use me.

Bless the worship lead my finger.

2010-11-19T07:46:00.003+08:00

Everytime when i see people talking to their own blog,
i will think they are crazy.
But now i really have that feeling just like those people talking to their blog.
But is this correct?

What happen when i feel weak?
What happen when i feel lonely?
What happen when i feel like giving up?
What happen when i feel the world is going the opposite way?
What happen when i feel no one love me?
What happen when i feel not vex positive?

IN JESES NAME CUT ALL THE NOT VERY NICE FEEL AWAY.
IN JESUS NAME PROTECT ME.
IN JESUS NAME I PROCLAIM I'M YOUR'S.
IN JESUS NAME.
AMEN!!!

It's wrong to have this kind of feeling.
Because this is not what GOD want be to have.
Life have to go on.
It's not end of the world.
i will be a better person as day passes.
God has a better plan for me.

Why worry?
Worry about how GOD want to use me.
Worry about what GOD want me to do.
Worry about where GOD want me to go.
Worry about when GOD using me.
And
Worry about am i ready for all this?
Wong JiaHui you can.
GOD know you are strong.
Dun go half way and U turn back.
Road is hard.
Who cares GOD is with you.
So JiaYou JiaYou JiaYou.
If i do not trust myself who will trust me?

From this point on.
Speak the word of GOD
See the way of GOD
Hear the voice of GOD
Do what GOD want you to do and not what i want.

Sinner Praying

2010-11-18T08:05:00.003+08:00

Lord
I Wong JiaHui a sinner.
I have sin and sin again and again time after time.
It's already like a must do everyday.
Lord clear me.
Everytime this happen i will just shut down myself.
No one know's what am i getting through
Lord You said everything happen for a reason, so what is it now?

There are sometime i really want to give up my title of a christian
There are sometime i really want to give up my title of a worship keyboardist/pianoist
There are sometimes i really want to give up my title of being who i am
There are sometimes i really want to give up my title of YOUR children.

Being a nice jiahui following the rule dun punk does not make me go any where but get hurt.
Lord where are YOU when i'm in pain.
Why is it always that hard to hear YOU when time like this?
The tear that felt from me did YOU see them?
The pain i'm in now YOU see them?

The very mix feeling for everything
Are YOU there for me?
Is it YOU?
So how?
What can i do?
Am i doing the correct thing?
Can this be done?
By saying this does it help?
What's next.

Everyone pray everyone get their ans,
i pray i got noting.

LORD,
Forgive me!
Heal me!
Renew me!
Lead me!
This is what i want now,
This is what i need now.

LORD it's going to be end of the year soon.
Can YOU help me wrap up my year in a better way?
Thanks for hearing my prayer.
In LORD greatest name AMEN.

2010-11-16T07:46:00.003+08:00

Lord I do not wan anything but You

I love those who love ME, and those who seek ME find ME. Proverbs 8:17

2010-11-15T19:39:00.002+08:00

It's a Monday ((:

Every week it's like vex fast in class after tt rush back to work.
But today was vex diff.
The wait for sch end was like million's of hours.

Finally the time is up and i thought it was hard for me at first.
But after afew month it's the first smile deep from my heart.
It vex refreshing,
Hope thursday come faster.

See you again. (:

2010-11-13T01:40:00.002+08:00

Today i when for a job interview.
I lied in my CV. ):

But after that i actually think.
It have been sometime i ask myself some qus i never ask myself before.
It maybe a 100 qus but to me it's like a wake up call.
It's have but awhile i check my heart.

And i when for a run with a friend on tuesday he said something and make me also wake up.
If someone who are you.
Wat is your reply.
A use to be a close friend said this I'm so and so SON of GOD.

From now on.
I'm JiaHui son of GOD.
No longer fishball no longer anyone but HIS son.

2010-11-06T22:09:00.003+08:00

It's a happy and sad sat/week.

God really love me so much i agree i didn't pray much this week as alot of stuff coming in.
I also when crazy and i did when crazy on monday, what a way to start a week.
Still GOD was vex good.
Was sitting in church today and the person who i really wish i could talk to came to me and sound some stuff to me.
And the greatest thing is i didn't even open my GOLDEN mouth.

HE knows what i'm thinking.
How great is my GOD??
Vex great. ((:

It was raining i just love the feeling of raining.
How i wish i had a car.
I can sit in it with some song playing and the sound of the rain hitting the roof on the car.
Just love it vex relaxing. ((:

But all this always bring back old memory. ):
Dun like.
Am I the only person, who is hurt?
I guess the ans is NO, Cause JESUS been there before for ME.

And i finally QUIT FACEBOOK.
It have been sucking my life.)))))):
Dun like.
I rather spend the time on some other useful stuff.

2010-10-06T14:53:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was like every tuesday go church prayer meeting go home sleep.

But GOD ans the prayer.
He actually asked those who do not have or cannot sleep well go out.
Then xue ying said how about those who cannot wake up?
So i when up tong wei ge prayed for us.

I juz go home like every tuesday going home with faith that everything i pray will be ans but nope every wed i wake up sian. :'(

But this morning it was vex diff.

I actually woke up at 6 and stone there and i wanted to rest back i cannot rest in peace.
And i juz on the tv till 7 or 8 and stay to get to work.
I actually wake up.
So prayer really work.

And every tuesday when we pray i will juz pray in word's for 5 or less min den look around and thinking what to pray about.
I finally understand why.
Pastor shared with us saying if the holy spirit is with you the prayer will never stop.
and it was diff last night the present's for the holy spirit lead me through the who thing,
Even i was not vex happy at first.
But GOD promised me something.
Something that is greater then what i can think and see.
At that point of time everything change.
It's like swimming like a pool of blessing.
Vex sweet. vex blessed.

Ya, so a prayer with out the lead of the holy spirit is just a prayer.
But prayer with the spirit leading you is not just a prayer but i still dunno what is the correct word to put.
But i really enjoyed the praying session.

Thank you LORD

2010-08-17T00:27:00.000+08:00

Rejection

2010-08-16T23:59:00.002+08:00

I have been so worry about being rejected.
But someone tell mi this out or random.

The msg goes like this:
You are not the only one who's been rejected n hurt so much that it leaves a scar.
I'm no talking about you or me.
But in the past year or so.
We have rejected GOD.
Time n again.
We have probably hurt HIm countless times.
But even before we were born.
God had already sent HIS onli son to die for our sin.
We don't deserve this LOVE that HE' s been giving us.
These chances for us to return to HIm.
HE let us go thru this tough journey so that HE could bring us back.
And not onli brought us back, he accepted us and LOVE us.

How all this happen?
4 letter.
PRAY.

Thank's lord for putting random like this above in my life.

Lord's life is full of disappointment but in YOU and YOU will never disappoint and give up your son who kept rejecting and sinning.
Father in you i want to grow as a leader as your servant.
Thank you lord for being in me.
I want to be counted by you. ((:

2010-08-16T13:18:00.002+08:00

Finally after so long at least a plan is out.

Lord look after what we have plan for,
so looking forward.
YOU know what is best for everybody,
YOU let thing's happen for a reason.
Thank YOU lord.

As a chapter just ended a new one start's.
I do not know what is in there wish it's full of fun and joy.

Time to stop slacking and stand up from where i am
9 exam is waiting and are coming.
Hmmm.
Wisdom wisdom wisdom wisdom come come come.
Knowledge come come come.

2010-07-18T01:09:00.001+08:00

>:]

2010-05-28T19:01:00.002+08:00

Left side of east coast park---

Right side of east coast park ---

This is the first time i ran 25km. Was talking to my friend after the race.
POP REC to PTE do 24km march,
ORD run 25km.

It take my 3hour and 28min's to finish the run.
But it have been a week after the run. Leg have already recover.
Feel like gng for the next run.

Mizuno Wave Run 2010

Will gng alone and running alone is not fun. Have to find someone to run together.
Drop mi a msg if who ever wanna go. =>

2010-05-16T01:38:00.001+08:00

Catching some sleep,
Time plz dun fly..

2010-05-05T07:28:00.002+08:00

I had a vex wired dream last nite.

Hmmm.

I was at this place wif a friend.
And suddenly someone came in and say someone dead and everybody started to get busy.
Hmmm.
Den i saw dey push in something big wf a sheet covering it.
Wen dey open it.
I saw 3 body on it.
Male, female and a baby. DEAD laying there.
Den i vex scare and stand next to the door.
And i saw e body moving by it self.
But one of e all of the body started cuffing
and
i walked to the door and wen wanting to leave e room
the 2 adult body start to say something not vex clear.
But one of the body move his head and looked at mi and the eye's was white
and
started saying u wanna run??
So run away from porb lorz.
And there was a person prayer for e body so dey dun jump up.
Haiz...
I jump up and it was vex cold and prayed for 15min and wen back sleep.

I guess i'm missing prayer,
I'm doing alot and wif out prayer it's noting

Lord teach mi.
I wanna be like a little kid and mind and trust u like i use to. (:

2010-04-17T09:51:00.002+08:00

Time really fly. My 2 year's of NS coming to an end.
I guess i have my plan set.
Everything is ready.
BUT
I onli need someone to drive my ship,
I don't know why, this few week's i really feel vex protective over any ppl touching my ship.
Y izzit alway's like this.
Den wen thing's happen i start to find the ship CPT.
It is alway hard to do thing alone and myself.
I'm weak but who is strong?
Tt's why i need MR YA to not only be my CPT but the owner of the ship.
It's time to give my key up.

I just wanna remind myself,
Cannot alway get into trouble or mass den start seeking for CPT,
There is no easy way put,
But the right way.
Hmmmm.

I can only hope and trust and have faith in GOD.
And cannot alway be in my own world.
Leaving everything to GOD's plan.
Some studd may not end up how i wish it will be.
But who know's wat's next for mi?
Hmmm......

Wow.

Had worship prat last nite.
Heard everything was new,
Hehe.
It have been think 3 mth ever since i played the piano wif the team.
Feel vex diff,
As in wat i learn from my sch,
It may not help alot,
But
At how i look at stuff, how i play as a team.
Cannot wait till sunday.
But now wat i know i can do is to re-charge myself.
Re-fill myself and not relying on my own.

And everytime i go to a cell a new cell meeting i will find myself talking abt
1Corinthians 13
It's a vex short 13 vs but it's something tt i alway put it in my phone and heart.
It's abt wat's LOVE to chirstian dey may know wat are those but it have to be reminded sometime.

Love is Patient
Love is Kind
It does not Envy
It does not Boast
It is not Proud
It is not Rude
It is not Self-Seeking
It is not Easily Angered
It keeps NO RECORD OF WRONG
Love does not delight in evil but Rejoices with the Truth
It always PROTECTS
Always Trusts
Always Hopes
Always Persevers
LOVE NEVER FAILS

It's not easy to forefill the LOVE thingy.
But i know someone who has done it.
Tt's JESUS, ppl may say anything abt HIM.
Say stuff but it will never drift me away from GOD.
Wat he have done for me, really make me alway go forward and not stop where i'm stuck.

JiaHui, jia you. :)

2010-03-19T11:06:00.002+08:00

Had a vex fruitful week in camp.

I have not done this before,

But i done it.

I cross the red sea wif in 2 day's.

And i found out i'm not the wired person,

My GOD, My LORD is also wired.

It's something like, Like FATHER like son.

Hmmm.

This is 9 week le.

I really need to empty my mind.

I cannot do anything, everything is not coming together.

Feel like escaping tml's lesson.

But is tt the best way?

Pick the right choice.

Another chapter of life starting soon,

time really flyes.

Still remember the last time i was complaning abt NS and army.

And it's gng to end in another 2mth plus.

Also study starting.

New challage will arrive

Too much to think, to much to do.

Go step by step,

Slowly,

And in smaller steps.

This morning i wen to someone's blog and saw this:

For love covers a multitude of SINs (1 peter 4:8)

2010-03-02T09:00:00.004+08:00

What if a role model fall?

I alway thought it only happen in tv show or movie.
But
It happen's in real life.

I really do not know which word from your mouth is true?
Or should i belive you
In human we trust in human we fail.
The more the trust the more you get hurt.

Came across the wedding vow.
Not matter wat in health or poor and richer.
Muz stand as 1.
It's juz a word or a bottle prob
Will lead you to crash your life.
As human we are weak,
we will walk e wrong path
No matter what vow or promise human are alway human.
But
if we put GOD in e midder is really vex diff.
Why do we alway forget abt GOD,
Why when things happen problem start to come den only we remember GOD.

I do not wanna lost a friend or friend's.
How to handle?
What to do.
WWJD
What Would Jesus Do????
or
What Will Jiahui Do???

Will keep you in prayer.
As e best way is to seek the KINGDOM of GOD.

GOD will make a way when it seem's to be no way.
HE works in ways, we cannot see.
HE will make a way for you.
HE will be your guide
hold you closer to HIS side
With ONLY Love and Strenght
For each new day
HE will make a way.
HE will make a way

by the roadway in the wildness
HE'll lead you
and rivers in the desert will you see
Heaven and earth will fade
but HE Words will still remain
He will do something new today.

It's a song by Don Moen,
Very old song but full of meaning.
GOD will make a way when you seem there is no way.
But what i saw i worst den what i'm gng through
I will treaure things tt are infront of mi tt's you Pretty Pig.
I know it's kinda hard.
But a promise is a promise
It's not to be broken
If you need more air time,
Den k.
But can i also have my air-time.
When ever you are ready.

2010-02-12T10:29:00.003+08:00

Today wen i wen to my blog i saw my count down.
Leave 3mth and 30 day's.
As time's running up
Wat should i do?
Wat can i do?
Wat will i do?

E path infront is really blur.
Will it be betta, and clear wen e time come closer or still e same.

2010-02-07T09:27:00.003+08:00

Wow. It's 0930 and i'm still at home. Hmmm.
Vex tired :(
Work till 4= last nite, did not go for mts.
First mts lesson i missed.
Now really feel like stay at home and do noting and think abt noting.
I really feel like stay away for awhile no phone no tv nobody but mi.
:'(

Yes e day i coming nearer, closer.
Power.
I can feel it Mr pink ic i miss you.

Have not been doing any QT or BS this whole week.
Feel's vex weak.
Emotionly weak too.
Hopefully this will be a better week.

But i started reading on some POA.
e whole last week end up at Parkway de NLB on sunday.
I think i too long never study le.
My brain juices no more liao.
No need 30min i blank le.
Hmmmm....
ORD back to study <- vex sad.
Seeing friend's around mi having sch look and sound's funny.
But wen dey are busy, Dey really vex.
How will it be wen it's my turn?

Ppl who care out there pls pray for my leg.
It's getting more and more pain as time and day passes by.
&
I somehow dunno where to go after NS,
As in where to study wat to study or should i study.

2010-01-22T08:37:00.003+08:00

Am i gng to hide hide hide escape escape and escape?
I guess, i learned and have learn i'm learning from my mistake.
There is no point hiding or escape?
All i'm gng to do is to prove you wrong.
And no gng to hide or escape.
How far can i hide?
How long can i hide?
I'm not scare of anything.
Why should i be?
I have TRUST
I have FAITH
I have GOD.
Wat more can stop mi and doing a U turn?

I'm not gng to keep my mouth shut or hide myself.
I'm who i'm.
I'm not a sunday chirstain
I'm GOD's warrior
I have GOD in mi.
No worry and promieses is who i can say.
But it's up to mi and GOD relationship.

It's hard, in GOD's path.
Noting is easy wen it's abt feeling, friendship and relationship.
But wat's e best way!?!
Prayer and relying on GOD.
No point fighting and shooting each other.
End of the day all will be die or inject.

Pull your horses.
Slow down foot step.

I guess it's time to pray slowly and listen to wat HE wan's to tell mi.

Pass by some place yesterday i saw this,
In HIM we trust and and faith.
Short and sweet.
I like.

Hmmmm.

2010-01-22T08:37:00.002+08:00

It's a friday.
And it's still early and outside it raining.
I cannot sleep anymore.
I'm vex scare now.....

I had a nightmare.
A vex wried wan.

Had a dream abt my mother died.
She was cross this place and she fall down.
and she die.
And
wen i came home my dad told mi wat happen,
And e whole family was at my house.
Aunty was tell mi to stay strengh.
At first it was okay, it was a sat.
And sunday came and i started crying.
Seeing my mother.
And at e wake everything wen wrong.
All i could remember is I kept crying, and try to be strengh and carrying on wif life.
I didn't call my army or tell Miss pretty pig.
I kept it away from e whole church tt my mum was die.
I hide it from everybody.

And i felt vex lost.
I dunno wat to do.
It's onli mi and my dad.
And wen i heard thunder i woke up.
E first thing i wanted to do is hug my mother and tell her i love her.
But she was out for work le.
It maybe a dream but i know i really love my mum.
It's hard on e outside we alway quarrel and soft in the inside. :'(
Now i know how important is my mum to mi. :'(

2010-01-16T10:07:00.003+08:00

On thursday wen to some place and saw something tt i dun really like to see.
Hmmm.
Wanted to leave at tt point of time.
Or
I kinda leave e place for some air, but...
Haiz. :(
If u were mi wat will you do??
Or maybe it's okay wif you.
Haiz.
Think i'm thinking too much.
End of e day who am i?
How i feel is not tt important to you i guess. :)
Haiz.

Lord, i dunno wat should i do.
Show mi teach mi. :'(
Hear my cry
See my tears
Feel my pain.

2010-01-16T10:07:00.002+08:00

Somehow i dunno wat happen.
I guess i will juz leave it to GOD.
No point save my ass.
So wat if i save my ass but ended up losing something importen in life.
I really dunno why izzit ended up like this.
All i can do now is stay away from trouble.

Haiz...

Ya, gng for my first lesson after 2002.
Time to improve.
Time to move on.

2010-01-10T07:48:00.002+08:00

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2010-01-09T07:41:00.005+08:00

It's e first post of e year.

Happy new year blog. :)

New year new wish.

Hmmm..

Was thinking of this prob.

I alway hear ppl say Jiahui you alway like to do ans say "double edged sword" qus.

I thought it was fun doing tt.
But it do really hurt wen it's done asked on myself.

If u still dunno wat's a double edged sword this is how it's looked like.

And

A double edged sword qus is a qus tt will hurt both ppl e asker and e ans person

It's like e blade of e sword both side can kill.

And onli till someone popped mi a double edged sword qus den i know how it's feel like,

It's like you say wat's in you u will kinda hurt e person,

Den

You dun wanna hurt e person you get poke.

Both side also will poke either mi or e other person.

Really need alot of wisdom to handle this kind of qus.

But wisdom from myself it's call noting.

I kinda like this.

It's from 1 Kings 4:29

God gave Solomon wisdom and very great insight, and a breadth of understanding as measureless as the sand on the seashore.

So i'm gona change it abit.

God gave WONG JIAHUI wisdom and very great insight, and a breadth of understanding as measureless as the sand on the seashore.

Amen!!!!

As human no one has or had an unlimited understanding for anything on earth.

But in HIM my GOD i will have unlimted understanding.

Will keep myself in prayer.

I wanna grow big big this year. :)

Hmmm.

Talking abt grow i wanna list a few GOALs i wanna score this year.

-Grow in HIS kingdom wif WISDOM n KNOWLEDGE.

-Finish up at least half of e bible wif UNDERSTANDING.

-Get started wif my CAT/ACCA

-Play GRACEFULY and WORSHIPFULY wif my piano skills

-Dun pull any dumb stun

-Set my mind on and buying a notebook.

Thinking of it it's less den 20 book out and i'm gng to see my pink card.

Have to start doing,

Have plan for like a year wat to do.

It's time, and time is running up.

2009-12-23T21:13:00.002+08:00

Ya.
On 221209 at around 1200hrs
I was richer by $200.
By at around 1900hrs 231209

I droped my phone and spoiled it.
And poorer by i dunno.
Haiz.

Hmmm.
Was walking home juz now kind of feeling wried
I kinda like e night life in wallaby.
Hmmmm...
It was so dark tt u can see lot's of starsss..
And shoting star.
I really miss those day.
But life in camp is getting betta.
Need not wake up at 0445 to brush my teeth and bath.
Now.
Wake up 0600hrs
Brush teeth and breakfast.
Den go back sleep till 1030.

Haha.
Wow.
Wen malaysia last week end.
It was fun.
And really great job to YT, CHEK, tRis, Qq, Sun Mei, And di lam.
For so short de timing dey can put up this great prog.
Power.
And u can feel GOD is wif dem and us during e whole camp.
Everyone really enjoyed demself.
Even there's some unhappness
It's okay den overall was good.

And dun forget e little kid's
can see that there are alot of little leader coming up liao.

2009-12-14T14:11:00.002+08:00

It have been 2 week i'm back in singapore.
Feel vex diff.
Bad habit is back again.
I shared wif someof my friend's.
Some dun even know i do tt before.
E reason i gave myself is i'm stress.
Some prob tt seems to be gone but it's still there.
Hmmmm...
Dun blame other ppl.
Blame yourself

Hmmm.

After 2 day's of MTS lesson.
really feel it's a wake up call for mi.
Have been sleeping in camp for abt 18mth.
6 more mth to go.
It's now or never.

Hahahahaaa..

And i juz done and said something really by faith.
now ballzzzz drop le.
But nvm.
I will put everything in prayer and thing's have been planned well so far!!1
As i can see.

2009-12-10T23:22:00.002+08:00

Wow.

Thank's Lord i'm out again.
Again ORD. :)

Had worship prat juz now.
Tried some new thing's it didn't wen well wif mi and shi long.
But after zhenling and chek's point point play play and say say.
Power.
Cannot wait for sunday. :)

I juz found out my side reading is really vex screw.
I had this song which is in G,
Den Shui Feng jie wanted it in E.
Den i wrote it next to it.
And at e end she change her mind.
Vex happy she change or not alot of black notes.
So she change to F.
So i tried to side read.
I could not even read. :(
If shui feng jie u saw this post i'm not complaining abt u keep changing it's okay, really.
I think it's really time for mi to up grade my skill.

Nvm i'm having off tml.
Will juz stay at home and play and prat. :)

Okay now gng back to work for tml.

2009-12-07T09:27:00.002+08:00

Hmmmmm...
It's Shui Feng jie last time leading worship and it's e last time i play for her.

One of e new song tt i wanna show something new..
Something tt boomzzz

I wanna try something new.
I alway use e piano onli.
It's time to change do something diff.

2009-12-07T08:39:00.002+08:00

Wen for church yesterday.
Finally i understand something tt pastor say.
MTS i'm back. Muhahaha...
This whole lesson is abt prayer.
This really remind mi how much muz i talk offen to GOD.
Have been missing out alot wif GOD.
Time to catch e time back.
Noting is too late.

After MTS wen for dinner at Quality Hotel.
Wif cell.
Dey have nice food there. (:
But hard to get there.
After dinner wen KTV.

I'm actual vex scare of KTV.
I alway go there juz see ppl sing.
And luff at dem.

But ended up thing's got so high everyone wen crazy i never seen before de.
Pretty cool.
Really enjoyed myself.

I was looking for this song in KTV but did not found haiz..
By 李玖哲.
不, 完美
Hear this during some show on tv kind of pretty meanful...

And KTV really have some meanful song,
Cannot remember wat song was there but it's abt giving this person eye's to someone he love.

I still wan my song.:'(

kinda fun wen u go wif alot of ppl.
All crazy de.
Coz must of e time i go de.
E mode vex tanns.
Think i'm kinda of loving KTV.
I wanna go sing e next time. :)

2009-12-05T23:48:00.002+08:00

Hmmmm.

It's time.
It's really time.

Toooooo.
Get a netbook.

I wanna get Fujitsu M2010.

It's x'mas anyone wanna get mi 1??
I will love u deep deep.....

2009-12-04T09:36:00.002+08:00

1 week of break is up.
Time to get gng again.
It's a thump's up and down thing gng back.

Kinda settle some admin stuff for my after ORD plan.
Made some phone call had some numbers.
Sadly to say numbers is e biggest prob.
I'm not from some rich family or sliver spoon family.
I have find my own money.
Money dun drop from sky.
BUT
Come, all you who are thirsty, come to the waters; and you who have no money, come, buy and eat! Come, buy wine and milk without money and without cost.
Isaiah 55:1-3
Faith is all i have..
GOD is MY provider.

2009-12-02T23:43:00.001+08:00

During this travel e dark side of jiahui is out.

I kept telling myself wat happen in wallaybe stays in wallayby

2009-12-01T10:00:00.043+08:00

Ex Wallaby

And this is where i stay during e 3 week's.

Where we hand our smelly shirt.

And e view from my bed.......

Cool rite..

Wait till u see e show place.

U can size up ppl here. :x

It takes 3 bucket to fill 1 full bag.

Still not bad rite.. Haha..

In is e shitting place.

It never smell, do u know why?

Because!!!!!!!

Saw dust...

There is e door for e shitting place.

At least there is door,
But not lock.
So anyone can push e door open and see u shitting. :x

Hmmmmmmm.....

Pop quest time......

Guess wat is this???????

Peeing time...

It where i do my peeing..
It really smell wen e last few day's Haha..

This is 1 thing not all singaporean seen and use before..

And

If u'r lucky u will see this in e morning wen u are brushing teeth.

Kangaroo

COW

Wild life.....

And this is how we get water..

E ang mo will drive this monster...

This is how water come.

E view at tiger hill(my camp site) is vex nice too.

BUT

Wen e war(FTX III and ATEC) start.

Eating snake.

This is wat made mi slim. :(

Platoon 6 LAST TIME CAMOING.

Platoon in action... Power!!!!!!

40/50 BXII

Camo net.

Top class view on BX.

It was hot so a friend of mine try to pray for rain. Look's funny.. Hahahaha....

Hot weather.

SO...

Try praying...

But noting happen ahahaha...

And he prayed till e night fall..

It was e whole new thing to mi fighting and training overseas.
And i drive through e night vex tiring can drive till eye's close,
and banging trees down like nobody's problem. Cool rite.

And at e last day we get to talk to e chef of defence force 3 star.
Got to have photo with APACHE it was 1 of e high light i had.
And e day before i wen RnR we had to go find some missing item with my OC
We did not empty handly go back found a few thing.
And my OC brought us to this vex nice beach tt was e first time we see beach and sea in wallayby,
Why coz e training place is call shore water bay training area (SWBTA), and for 3 week's we onli see trees burning and noting much.
I will try to find e photo and show off.

After 3 week's of hell in tiger hill we are all waiting for RnR.......

About 1-2 hour of bus travel.

And here we reach e only shopping mall.....

City Centre Plaza

Was pretty blessed my motel was juz across e street, about 5 min walk.

E size of e mall was like Tampines 1 from e outside. But in e mall it's onli 1 stair.

And this is wat happen wen it's around 1530 there.....

NOBODY de..

E streets too NOBODY...

We also when to this place think it's call coolberries park.
It's actual a zoo.

It's a wild life expren.

With...

Peacocks....

Duck.

and many more

Duck

Some dunno/random bird's.....

Wow.

This wan is hard i dunno is donkey or pony
e head vex vex big.

Deer.
But this wan no red gloying nose.

Wild dog's call dingo.

And some ugly thingy. ahahahaha..

Snake.

I dunno this bird is called wat,
But i onli know this bird will kill ppl and had killed ppl.
Look's like emu but bigger.

Emu 1 of australian's own animal

Emu have a ugly face.

And sum mei u asked for it de.. Hahahahahahah.....

Koala.....

And e ppl there really thing we are dump,
Dey said it's vex lucky to carry a koala.
And it cost AUS$10 to carry
My friend got con he wen e day before us it cost him $15,
Total kana con....

Kangaroo

And i tried to push e baby out of e pouch.

And shui feng they are kangaroo not wallaby. Haha..

And life there is abit..........

This is how night life over there......

I walked 30 min to buy a "drink".

Hmmmm.. I will still carry on to find new photo's to post. :)

2009-11-26T10:01:00.000+08:00

Ya.
3 more day's and i coming home. :)

2009-11-15T15:29:00.003+08:00

Wow. I'm online.

Hmmm..

! week pass 2 more to GO. Jia U.

Living here is a haiz.... :'(

But it's a whole new expriz.

e shitting place's,

Sleeping place,

Peeing place,

Bathing place.

Something tt singapore dun have.

Some thing to look forward to is RnR.

Gng to whack food food food and food. Muahaha.

2009-11-08T07:23:00.002+08:00

Hmmmm..
Let's go.
In a few hour's time i be flying liao.
:)

2009-11-06T23:14:00.003+08:00

Ouch....
My leg and hand is in pain. Haha..
Wen for some volleyball in sec sch juz now.
Shit i think it's time to slim.
Haha.
Cannot dig cannot spike cannot set.
Everything also cannot.
Think should put everything aside and enjoy playing vb now.

hmmmm.
Shit i cannot set my mind right.

Now i feel like gng back ITE and den poly
:'( Which should i choice?
ITE or CAT?
Poly or ACCA?
Cannot anyone enlighten mi....

2009-11-05T16:06:00.002+08:00

Hahaha..
U hear tt.
It's not my tummy.
BUT
E sound of e heart breaking. Haha.

Jiahui are u gng to bring a buren heart to wallaby?
Are u still looking back?
Where's ur Faith?
Come on life have to go on.
Go kill zombie
Go for run.
Do anything but not tt.

Hmmmm.

I dunno how to share e feeling.
I was really hurt.
May seem's to be happy on e outside,
But deep down everything is wrong.
It toke 3 month to forget everything
and
onli 3 day's to get back e feeling. Haha.

COme on JIahui wake up.
Perpare urself for ATEC
Perpare urself for ORD.
Perpare urself for Acca.
Perpare urself for Business

Haha..

Hmmmm.. Feeling much betta.
Back to kill zombie. AAAARRRRRgggggggGgg.
Screw e rain.

2009-11-05T00:01:00.002+08:00

Help....

Hmmm.

For e pass few week's wen i was in camp for some screw up reason.
It really made mi think, i guess i had shared this before.
Haiz.

I actually total lose my faith in GOD.
First i was hurt.
Den my left ankle Fractures.
Got screw for save other ppl's ass.

All this lead mi to empty.
I totally gave myself up.
I couldn't sleep at nite,
never talk to anyone.
It was e darkest time in camp.
I dunno how to share e feeling's but it was bad.

But somehow i stand up but doing a prayer,
After e paryer it was not like wat ppl share alot of great thing happen or god spoke to dem.
It was a NOTing to mi.

And wen i was doing my MTS hw. It was talking abt forgiveness.
It's was e easyest of all e hw i saw.
But i sat there looking thinking and not writing anything.
It pretty hard to hate a person
and it hard to forgive wat e person have done to mi.
Both also hard.
Wat to choice?
Wat should i do.

After dorping by a friend's blog.
I saw this.
It's not abt mi and how i wanna settler this.
But
How and wat GOD wants mi to learn.

And in e path of JESUS noting is easy.
So i have to have faith in HIM who never fail to forgive wat i have done too.

I guess this up coming trip to wallaby is a kind of break for mi.
Even i'm gng to face a prob in wallaby have a Fractures Ankle and still have to chiong and go out field.
After this few day's de run around my house, i guess it's not abt my ankle or anything but it's abt beliving i can do it and having faith.

Have faith in the LORD your God and you will be upheld; have faith in his prophets and you will be successful."
2 Chronicles 20:20

Yes, FAITH is wat i need.

2009-11-04T23:25:00.002+08:00

Ya. I got a free com abit lag but at least still can use. Haha.
But e com belongs to my mum.

Hmmm.
Pretty sian having off for this few day, awaiting for ATEC.
Be leaving singapore soon.
Haiz.
I miss singapore.
Food
Bed
Ppl.
Muhaha.

Count down.

2009-10-23T21:17:00.002+08:00

It have been along time since i blog.
All i remember e last thing tt happen was valen's 21 birthday.
And and i was really drunk. :x

Have not been reading bible gng cell.
Toke a long break.
It feel's betta i guess.
Escaping it's not e right.

I did had a really close chat wif my OC a few week's back.
Talking abt everything.
I actually told him my personal stuff, tt i have never share wif anyone before.
His like a older brother to mi, His like onli 9 year older den mi.
I alway thought i'm okay i'm alright,
BUT
Thing's just happen.
After talking to him, i really wanna say thank's to him.
Really drop my heavy field pack down and take away my mask.
It's was a wow.
Actually everything is a link.
All from e start.

But during this few week.
I found out i have alway been ina fish tank, and "alot" of fish around mi.
But somehow i have been forced to jump out of tt tank.
And seeing this whole picture from a diff view.
Life is not fair, Life is full of up's and down.
I dun like it, But no choice.
Suck it up. :)

Afew great thing's happen in camp.
Pretty slack for mi,
I'm gng to down PES C9L2,
I have a Fracture Ankle.
It's was a shock of my life.
Have not been on e bright wen i heard e new abt my ankle.
And the fracture have been there for vex long, It's juz tt i choice not to care abt it.
I want to fight wif my friend's my platoon mate,
Eat shit and sand wif dem.

BUT THEN

My PC told mi tt turn mi off.
His a screw up.
Juz dun like screw up stuff affect my life.
So as i was saying i'm slacking in camp lend my friend's I-TOUCH was lot's of movie and not forgetting PSP too.

Watched :
How i met your mother.
Proposal.
Audrey Hepburn.
And many more.

Tt moive tt is still in my head or should i say song is Breakfast at Tiffany's, Moon River sang by Audrey Hepburn.
She had a sweet voice.

Guess wat wen i looked at my blog thoday and these this count down thingy,
Tt day's i still have 7 more mth.
Can u see tt BIG O forming up?

JiaHui 2 word for u JIA YOU.

2009-09-11T21:58:00.000+08:00

Hmmmm. Everyone's asking how did i celeb my 21th birthday.
Hmmm.
It was great.
I celeb in camp doing alot of shit job.
Running here and there make myself like "WALI"
Walking
Around
Looking
Importen

Haha.

2009-08-31T17:48:00.000+08:00

Wen made a new passport juz now.
Was e first time gng out wif my platoon mate.
After CNY and a few P.S (wei chee mong kok)
Was fun.
Wen Kandahar St for lunch super ex lunch tt i can say.
Not really worth tt price.
But enjoyed e time.
It's e first time i go bugis after along time.
E feeling and everything is diff.

Hmmmm.

Feel vex diff as day passes.

Growing old le.
Haiz.
B'day coming le.
Dun think anyone will know wen izzit.
Or
Anyone will celeb for mi.
Hehe.

It's okay.
At least i still have my Pink DS in camp
and
Piano at home to accompany mi.

I still remember i spend my 20th birthday doing road march.
Maybe this year i doing shit job.
Haha.

Hmmmm.

Anyway gng to ORD soon, another 9 more mth.
Haiz.
Had a little talk wif xt and qq tt day in bus.
I will keep asking ppl so wat will u do e next step.
And
suddenly dey ask mi.
I stun for a moment.

I have to earn my own money
And
everything by myself after my NS.

It will be a vex diff chapter after army.
Alot of thing to worry about.
Like
*Money
*Wat am i gng to study?
*Part or Full time?
and many many more.

I have full of regrets haiz. :(
How i wish i have a turn back time machine for my birthday.

2009-08-31T10:47:00.000+08:00

Had alot of fun wif sunday school teacher's e pass few day's.
Wen to this church had lesson.
Was tiring and fun.

Hmmmm.
Where do i belong.
Worship Team or Sunday Sch?
Hmmm.
My ans to ppl who has ???? is both.

2009-08-17T09:16:00.000+08:00

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2009-08-10T11:28:00.002+08:00

Was doing my duty last nite at 0200hrs.
Some how i fall asleep wif my buddy not waking mi up.
And e next moment it was already 0600 in e morning.
I felt something funny.
It was like beening kiss.
I look at my buddy and he luff at mi.
I thought e kissed mi.
BUt end up.
I found out it was a blood sucker.
MOSQUITO.
ARRRggggg.'
My upper lip is like :( dun say le.
I wanna go hide in toilet to cry.
Ugly.

2009-08-10T10:54:00.003+08:00

Gratz Wong Jiahui!!!
YOu alway doing e right thing at e wrong time.
And
wrong thing at e right time.

101 out of 100 for doing e right thig at e wrong time.
And
111 out of 100 for doing wrong thing at right time.

Lord why izzit always happen like this.
Why izzit it have to end up like this.
This is not e first time.

I really wanna avoid all e feeling.
YOU too LORD.
It not vex nice hiding away from prob.

I somehow feel like throw my phone from where i'm.
Juz throw lose all contact lose all memory.
Lose eevrything and juz leave.
How much longer can i go.
How much longer.

I say u wan time fine u have ur time.
It's not tt i have much time leave.
I dun do thing tt juz do,
I have my reason why i do tt.......
I guess after last sat i think u can have all you wan de time.

Something happen in camp.
And it's not even my fault.
And i have to be blame for it......
So u get it.
Tt's why i did tt on sat.
Nvm.
I dun think u get wat i say or u wanna see or will see.
Juz let it be as how it started.
If you wan it to be like this.
Den i juz be e bad guy.
I feel so much like e pass few guy.
I'm like doing e same thing.

I reall dunnno wat am i doing.
Tell myself not too.
But where's self-control?

GOD is this tt ur ans??
Go ahead.
Dun look back.
Forgive and forget e pass.
aaaargggggggggggggggg
Can i reject YOUR ans?
Can?
Pull mi along.
Dun let mi go.
:'(

Haven been sleeping well since wat happen.
I will wake up every1 hour seeing if i'm okay of i will have some funny dream.
I so scare to sleep.
I onli sleep in e day.
Juz cannot sleep at nite.

I know ppl keep asking am i okay?
Wat should my and be?
I'm so fake.
I'm learning to be more and more fake.

2009-08-08T01:33:00.002+08:00

Am i gng to be like this?
Argggggggggggggg.

I dunno how to explain in word's.
It's abt e feeling.
How long can i fake other ppl.
How long can i fake myself?
How long can i fake my blog.
How long can i hide?
HOW LONG.

Guess i will juz hide in camp.

2009-08-07T14:14:00.000+08:00

Had my AHM 6km run at east coast yesterday.
Not vex tired came back at around 25min.
After tt we had car'jr.
Toke a few photo.
But cannot post coz no cable or my com spoil cannot read e memory card.

Hmmm.

We start after this carpark near B1 near ford road.
It was pretty short.
Everyone came back by 30min mark.

Den wen to parkway by foot we seem's to be lose.
But ended up reach parkway.
Haha.
It was pretty fun gng out wif my platoon.
Hmmm. Will try to up load all e photo.

2009-08-06T13:39:00.001+08:00

Ya.
Book out lorz.
Or
Haiz.
Booking out liao. Haiz. :'(

I dunno i suddenly said something to my friend and dey call my crazy.
Maybe i'm.

I had a busy and not vex good week.
Started wif some stock take on monday.
Everything wen wrong.
I cried but who's there.

On tuesday armskote everything wen well but......................
Haiz.
And after e check.
I was so happy,
I couldn't sleep.
I wanted to share my joy wif ppl.
But no wan was there
but
Onli pain from e past. :(
Alot of thing wen into my mind on tuesday nite.
Alot.
It was like a flash.
It was so fast tt i sad under my blanket.
I was so mixed up tt nite.
And i qus myself.
Did i do e rite thing.
Where are YOU wen i'm down.
Where are YOU wen i'm hurt.
You are no where to be found.
:'(
I can write pain wif my eyes close now.
Or maybe i'm full of pain.
Maybe it'z juz mi.

Or maybe, i have already forgot YOU helped mi before.
NOW listening to this song i played during 1 of my worship leaded my shuifeng jie.

This song is something like-
In ur LOVE noting is betta.
I wanna praise YOU.
I wanna rise YOUR name on high

Because YOU helped mi before.
I wanna re-joy under YOU.
My heart go closer to YOU and follow YOU.
YOU are my corner stone in life.

I dun think i pei de to call YOUR name.
Why am i alway like this.
I suck in life.
I guess "take a break".
Hiding away from u is e onli way i can see and do.

I will wait till someone pick mi up from e dark hole's in e wild.
Can i have a pic of my mind?
Can i have my own freedom?
Can i do wat i wan?
One's my pastor told mi we cannot.
But wat can i do now.
I dunno.
I'm really vex mixed up.

Why my past is so screw up.
Why i onli know how to complain?

WHERE ARE YOU?????????????????????????????????????
I WANNA YOU......................................
:'(

I have already ran out of tears.
I'm really vex dry up.
Someone give mi some water.

I guess i will juz hide in camp.
I have 101 reason to hide in camp.
Maybe after all e 101 reason finish le.
I be ok.
Haiz.

2009-08-02T15:36:00.000+08:00

Wow. After a long long long break from church.
Haiz.
I have alot to express.
Dunno where to start from.
Start wif something good first.
Ya.
I think yuhan's playing improving.
She good.
Yap.
My playing also never drop.
Still need alot of playing and pract.
Cannot compair apple and pea.
Haha.
End of e day we all still fruit and grow from tree.
We love GOD and GOD love us.
Hehe.

Yap.
Alot ppl do care.
Yes my leg is gng to be gone soon. Haha.
Lumping around is not fun.
Vex painful.
Yes i ran 16km
And i having foot rod.

Hope i do have a new start coz i'm having abit of change in some place to other place but still in e same place. Hahaha
:x

And NOW bad stuff.
Haha

Hmmm. No money liao.
I dunno where all my money fly too.
Haha.
Gone juz like tt.
In camp can spend over $100.
Cannot belive rite.
haha
And i'm 72++kg le.
Fat liao.
Hehe.
Round liao.
Hohoo.

Hmmmm..
I told myself not to go look at ppl's blog.
But ended up.
Haha..
Finger never listen to brain.
haha.
Now vex mixed up again.
Haha.
Haiz
Still got along way to learn.
Many thing's to learn.
Learn is hard.

Wong JiaHui.
I know i can.
I know u clever boy.
God love's mi.
Yes i know.
Control.
Seek HIS kingdom.
You are lost, u know urself.
Stop smoking ppl,
coz u cannot smoke GOD.
HE can see.
I know it's hard for mi.
But u still have to learn.
This is e hard way.
Is this wat u need and looking for now?
No right.
Trust and have faith in GOD.
HIS e planner.
Haha.
:)
Get well soon jiahui.

Haha..
It's a letter from wong jiahui to wong jiahui.
:)

Haha.
I dunno i really love my camp or in camp time pass faster or wat.
haha
Everyday is juz like tt pass.
This few day's i made a number of few friend's.
haha.
1 of dem is good in playing guitar. Pro.
Haha..
Mr Sponge Bobby.
Who alway call mi water bottle. =.="

And
Many ppl who is also pro in chinese chess.
haha.

Actual life in camp is also fun.
It's how u look at it.
Time will fly if u enjoy it. Haha.

2009-08-01T21:27:00.000+08:00

Busy and Stress.
4NTM
Stock take.
Less sleep.
DS.
And many more.

This is everything tt made mi go crazy.
But thank's LORD tt he hear my prayer.
HE hears my crying.
HE listens to mi.
HE love mi more den i love HIM.
HE never gave mi up.

Was doing some stock check in camp.
And i was super stress coz i was onli e wan who know's everything.
And e newbie's kept asking mi qus how to this and tt.
It really pisses mi off.
I'm a diff jiahui in camp.
I scold who ever i dun like in camp
I'm not like a human in camp.
:(
I'm sorry to those newbie i screwed. Haha.
Give mi sometime.
After this stock take.
Haha.

Hey.
Btw time really fly vex fast wen i'm busy.
It's gng to sept soon. Ya.
I'm gng to be 21 and freedom is mine.
Haha.
And after tt i'm gng oversea's.
haha.
Den so happy.
SO much thing's to look forward too during sept.
Muaha.

2009-07-26T21:20:00.001+08:00

A...
I'm not sumo lorz.
I'm FiShBaLlWoNg.
Not wat sumo.

U little gal.
I skin u alive lata.

2009-07-26T12:23:00.004+08:00

Why izzit happening to mi?
Haiz.
I think i should ask wat have i learn here?

I'm sorry for wat i have done.
I shouldn't not never do this.
I really wan it back.
But from wat i saw.
I started qus myself.
Am i doing e rite thing.
I have no wrong to say u are in e wrong,
Coz i was in e wrong too.
I'm sorry.

No wan own any wan any living.
We can go on wif out each other. :)
All u and mi, we do need GOD in our life.
Rely on ppl is tired. :)