JH Wong

Yes.. I'm out again..
Haiz..
Pretty not vex nice to hear this..
"Why he can book out!"
Haiz..

Back
Knee
Shoulder
All vex pain..

And lata i gng play wif 3 DIV
If win next round..
Lose bye to vb..

But at least i improve alot during this few mth of training..

And next week unit have ICCT..
Some fighting shit lahz..
Learn to break fall..
Hope can somehow can dun go..

ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.....

I really dunno how and wat to do..
Feel's like i'm a pic of shit..
Tt nobody's wan's..

Thing's tt i do not have

Money(I'm from a poor family)
Edu(I onli have a nitce1)
Car(I onli have 2 car tt bring mi to MRT and bus)
RANK(I'm juz a LCP) not like him

it add up too
NO money
NO honey
NO body wan's mi..

Shit this man... Argggg

I'm like now in e dark..
So u think i'm scare..
Haha..
Also dunno i scare for wat fuck..
AARrrgggg...

I'm sorry xiao qi..
I really dun wan thing to end up like tt..
I'm sorry..
Y cannot we rely more on GOD rather like ending up like tt..
k i know i started it..
Guess all i can say now is sorry.. :(

I had a super bad week in camp.. :( Alot of thing's happen.. Dunno how to start and where to start..
:(
Haiz.. Juz leave it lahz.. or maybe i will juz bottle up and see who lucky next to mi wen e time bomb goes off.. And die together...


Haiz.. Ya.. It's a sunday i should be happy, coz not booking in today.. But, i'm not even smile now.. Haiz..

Haiz..

I'm starting to campair again.. Everything small or big i also will go compair.. Even good or bad stuff.. :(
Knowing compairring is not good but i still do there.. Haiz..
It not how i know my life to be..
But everytime ppl tell mi this guy or gal did this, wen i'm doing at e same thing at tt time..
Feel pretty sad..
I dunno..
Maybe it's juz mi..
U may say it take's 2 hand to clap,
but,
It take's 1 mouth to talk..

Haiz.. Think i should stop here and go get change..
And start acting in church,
Act like noting is wrong wif mi..
Giving everybody a smile..
I dunno why life is so hard..
Maybe i juz love camp..
Coz i juz say or do wat i wan..
I juz dun really care how other's think of mi..
Coz i'm juz in camp..
Nobody care de..
Haiz..

:) i really dunno if i really did e rite thing..
Or maybe it juz look's like it's e rite thing but it's actual wrong stuff..

:) i really dunno if i really did e rite thing..
Or maybe it juz look's like it's e rite thing but it's actual wrong stuff.. :(

Ya down wif a little fever after church yesterday.. 37.6
Had 2 day's MC..
Now resting at home..
I guess it's really time for mi to learn how to take care of myself..
Ya.. :(

Haiz.. E whole story was like this..

I was actual not really feeling well wen i was having lunch..
And i know i'm gng to have another fever break down again..
But is e slowly kind..
So i have to choice if i book in camp tml den report sick..

But tml morning gng out field for 3 day's 2 nite..
Den dun think time go see MO..

So i start eating all e hot stuff in church..
Like tibits sweet's make my fever shoot higher..
And it did wen i wen CGH..
So i got 2 day's MC gng in tml nite.. :(

Sorry if i seem to be kenging to u..
I dun not have a choose..
But i guess it's juz tt hot weather tt make mi have tt bad fever..
And now i guess my throat also feel's funny de.. :(

Hmmm..
Think it's have been a vex long time since i chiong le..
Have been slack before CNY till now..
Not doing anything not even morning run..
Not even waking up for breakfast sometime's..
Not been doing my duty well in camp as well as in church..
Everything is like gng wrong..
Or is juz tt i start looking at wat i do??
Or maybe i have never been doing e rite stuff before??

haiz...

But i still wanna Praise HIM who gave mi e fever..
I wanna give thank's to HIM who let mi see myself betta..
HIS is e onli one i wanna ask help from..
HIS e wan i wanna hear from..
All i need is HIM now..
:)



Hehe....

Now talk abt something sad..
Yong En never turn up..
She put mi airplane.. :'(
Heart broken le lorz..
Crying liao lorz..
And yesterday..
E mother say e POSB account is not her's..
It's her didi de..
Tan Yong Qi..
Now muz go steal yong qi away from allison jie.. Hehe.. :)

Hmmm... Woke up vex early today think abt 5 abt..
But e happy thing was i have no more fever.. :) Praise E Lord.. :)

Somehow i readed my blog.. From e day before i wen in till now..
Somehow i change alot..

From how i look at thing's..
From scare gng NS and now wanting to go..
From Fail to Pass..
From REC to LCP..

Alot diff.. From 130608 and now 140209 not really 1 year but i see myself change being a betta person in some way..
Hmmm.. But somehow some stuff never change.. :x

Really wanna thank's LORD for changing mi..
From a little gangster to a real man..
From a nobody to a Knight in ur kingdom.. ROAR..










Lord.. Thank's for hearing my prayer.. U are a good listener den any other person.. U are e one and onli.. U are there to lead mi wen i'm lose.. U are there wif a helping hand.. U are there wif a big smile wen i'm down.. U are a great father..

Lord.. Thank's for changing mi.. In how i think and do thing's and how i look at thing's.. I know i have abig room to improve.. I know u will teach mi, lead mi, never letting mi do thing alone..
I will give praise and thank and put ur name on high.. I love you.. And i know U love mi more den i other's.. Thank's lord..

Lord i also wanna give praise.. I don't have a fever le.. :) U are a great doc.. U heal mi not onli my outside but inside..
U gave mi intener life.. U gave mi freedom..
Thank's LORD..

Thank's for listening to my prayer..
AMEN..

Talking abt Valentine's Day.. Hehe..
I have to blog this..

I have date le..
Last sat i jio this pretty gal..
She had to choice btw mi and e other guy..
But i too good le.. Hehe..
So end up she gng out wif mi..
We meeting 2200 hrs at her house down stair's.. Hehe..
Power rite.. hehe..
Hmmm..
Dunno wat can we do at her house downstair leiz..
Think e mother also will be there.. haha.. :'(
E most we gng play her house there de playground.. haha.. :x
hehe...

Shit think shui feng jie will kill mi if she see this.. haha..
Ya.. I dating her yong en.. Muhaha.. :p





She pretty and cute rite.. :)

I'm having FEVER again.. Ya.. Now at home cannot go out.. Haiz.. Sian or maybe good?? I also dunno.. Hmmm.. I had a 38.6c.. And it toke abt 100min to get my medi haiz.. :( i almost dead there.. But still alife..
So i guess i have till sunday den book in.. Haha.. 4 day's of CV life..

Ya.. I had a friendly match wif signal and won 4-2.. :) I didn't play alot of match.. But i rememeber i onli play 1 match.. hehe.. Was fun.. And i'm in e armour VB team.. Ya.. Pretty happy.. Hope we can go in to next round.. :) Comp is 23-27.. den i will be skipping alot of training.. :)
And guess wat i wanted number 3 but this PC wanted.. Was sad actual.. But i got a nice number, number 9.. Hehe.. ;x
All this playing of ballzz, Haiz.. It's making my back pain.. Think i'm old le.. :)

Haiz.. Lord lead mi to wat u wan mi to do, not wat i wanna do.. :( I have been doing saying e wrong stuff and thing's.. :( Teach mi.. Be more guai.. I dun wanna to be like this.. Show mi wat should i do..

:'(

It's another week.. ORD lorz..

My week was no vex fast not vex slow.. Hmmmm..
My back vex pain now.. Coz of my volleyball training..
And i'm happy..
I'm part of e ARMOUR volleyball team.. 1 of e 12.. Hmmmm...
Think i have improve alot in my VB skill..
Ya.. And i juz remember i dunno wat number i taking..
Hmm.. Coz at first i wanted 3 but some PC from other company wanted..
Hmmmm.. So cannot remember i taking wat number think is 9... haha..

Hmmm.. Ya..

Been vex slack in camp..
Or maybe training too slack..

:'(

Haiz.. I dunno why was reading my own blog.. And since i wen in NS.. I have been talking abt army.. My life is all army.. I wish i could blog abt some nice stuff like i knowing ppl.. Or making ppl come church.. haiz..
I guess i'm not tt good after all.. :(
Haiz...


Hmmmmm... I'm thinking of some stuff during my camp.. Haiz.. Juz dunno why ppl cannot juz shut up.. And juz mind their prob.. or have prob juz come ask mi.. Why muz ask here and there.. Screw u lahz.. I may seems to been more and more friendlyer.. Dun mean i dun mind.. I juz sometime choice not to care.. But thing is or gng to get oever hand i will have to stand up and do something.. haiz...
I'm a vex easy person like my CSM.. U good to mi i good to u.. U screw mi i screw u back.. U shit up i shut up.. Haiz..

haiz..

K... my back now getting more and more pain le.. :'( and think i wanna go rest le.. Had a long day today..

Lord... I come before u.. I wanna bring everything had been and gng to happen to u.. I know u let it happen coz u wan mi to learn to be betta..
And i'm now vex scare.. So scare tt i wanna hug Lord u and cry.. YOU are aloway's there for mi.. And i know u will alway's be in for mi..
Teach mi how to be a betta person in camp in church wif friend's and at home.. let mi be e salt.. I dun wanna be e water.. I wanna a change in my life..
I wanna do thing's wif u..
I wanna do thing's ur way...
Thank's lord for loveing so much and i alway forget u.. But i know u love mi alot tt no wored and explain how much u love mi..

Thank's for listening to my prayer.. Thank's you.. I prayer mi jesus name.. AMEN!!!