JH Wong

Always thinking why on earth ppl on TV always meet ppl who pass away?
Are this ppl crazy???
And only thought this will happen on TV series.

It's almost about 2 months my friend pass away.
And weeks and month before we are meeting up but I was busy with church.
Almost every friday I'm having worship practice.
And we kept postponing the meet up.
When I received the news when she pass away.
The first thought in my mind was she's joking.
But when many ppl texted and updated me, it was no longer a joke.
I told myself not to be affected by it.
But she was my very first close colleague, we use to bitch, play, slack, smoke, drink, play and many more together.
It maybe a very short time together.
I belief we have that connection, the very close friend connection.
It this very day I will still slap my face and ask myself why didn't I meet up with her.
She knew her condition and wanted to share.
But I choose to serve in some pointless ministries.

I really do miss her.
We had alot of stuff not done yet.
Stuff like getting fit together and many more.
Life is really very fragile
I have giving alot of my time to the worship team.
In return I had noting left.
Ppl may think I'm selfish, but I have noting to debate about.
You yourself try losing someone close and tell me how it feels.

Do you think the person next to you is fake?
Or maybe your best friend is just try to make use of you???

Yap I do.
Was think about what happen last few week.
One we can stand up there sharing what happen to his/her life how touching isit.
But is that real??

Why share only the the icying of the the cake???
You should share the whole pic or even the whole cake.
If you have the face to stand up there cry and say how GOD touch your life.

By doing that you just wan frame.
You just want ppl to know who are you and make ppl think you are so poor thing.

Will you can say who am I to comment all this.
Yap. Who am I??
I'm who I am and will never be who others wants me to be.
I speak for what is correct and stand-up for what I know is correct.
I'm a sinner to I sin.
But the diff between me and you is when I repent I will never do that again.

I'm always point my fingers at those who leave GOD for whatever reason it is.
I told myself that it will not and never happen to me ever.
But after last night, image and picture flash into me.
It's not that I no longer belief in HIM.
I think its just the disappointment that ppl who worked for HIM.

Many may think that I'm an asshole how could I say or hurt someone without thinking.
But to those who say that, Look into the mirror before saying.
You are no different from me.

Well, I guess live was never fair.
Just like what happen years back.
There is no happy ending.
Fairy Tales are all lies.
What for work so hard to please everyone.

Fairy Tales are all bullshit!!!!
Evil always win.
Ball/boot licker alway succeed.

Disappointment disappointment and more disappointment.
Maybe its just time to seek what I'm always trying to find.
A place where there is less disappointment.
A place that no one know you.
A place that I do not need to commit.
A place where I am nobody.

I cannot do much but just pray.
Just pray for something happen.