JH Wong

Wen made a new passport juz now.
Was e first time gng out wif my platoon mate.
After CNY and a few P.S (wei chee mong kok)
Was fun.
Wen Kandahar St for lunch super ex lunch tt i can say.
Not really worth tt price.
But enjoyed e time.
It's e first time i go bugis after along time.
E feeling and everything is diff.

Hmmmm.

Feel vex diff as day passes.

Growing old le.
Haiz.
B'day coming le.
Dun think anyone will know wen izzit.
Or
Anyone will celeb for mi.
Hehe.

It's okay.
At least i still have my Pink DS in camp
and
Piano at home to accompany mi.

I still remember i spend my 20th birthday doing road march.
Maybe this year i doing shit job.
Haha.

Hmmmm.

Anyway gng to ORD soon, another 9 more mth.
Haiz.
Had a little talk wif xt and qq tt day in bus.
I will keep asking ppl so wat will u do e next step.
And
suddenly dey ask mi.
I stun for a moment.

I have to earn my own money
And
everything by myself after my NS.

It will be a vex diff chapter after army.
Alot of thing to worry about.
Like
*Money
*Wat am i gng to study?
*Part or Full time?
and many many more.

I have full of regrets haiz. :(
How i wish i have a turn back time machine for my birthday.

Had alot of fun wif sunday school teacher's e pass few day's.
Wen to this church had lesson.
Was tiring and fun.

Hmmmm.
Where do i belong.
Worship Team or Sunday Sch?
Hmmm.
My ans to ppl who has ???? is both.

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Was doing my duty last nite at 0200hrs.
Some how i fall asleep wif my buddy not waking mi up.
And e next moment it was already 0600 in e morning.
I felt something funny.
It was like beening kiss.
I look at my buddy and he luff at mi.
I thought e kissed mi.
BUt end up.
I found out it was a blood sucker.
MOSQUITO.
ARRRggggg.'
My upper lip is like :( dun say le.
I wanna go hide in toilet to cry.
Ugly.

Gratz Wong Jiahui!!!
YOu alway doing e right thing at e wrong time.
And
wrong thing at e right time.

101 out of 100 for doing e right thig at e wrong time.
And
111 out of 100 for doing wrong thing at right time.

Lord why izzit always happen like this.
Why izzit it have to end up like this.
This is not e first time.

I really wanna avoid all e feeling.
YOU too LORD.
It not vex nice hiding away from prob.

I somehow feel like throw my phone from where i'm.
Juz throw lose all contact lose all memory.
Lose eevrything and juz leave.
How much longer can i go.
How much longer.

I say u wan time fine u have ur time.
It's not tt i have much time leave.
I dun do thing tt juz do,
I have my reason why i do tt.......
I guess after last sat i think u can have all you wan de time.

Something happen in camp.
And it's not even my fault.
And i have to be blame for it......
So u get it.
Tt's why i did tt on sat.
Nvm.
I dun think u get wat i say or u wanna see or will see.
Juz let it be as how it started.
If you wan it to be like this.
Den i juz be e bad guy.
I feel so much like e pass few guy.
I'm like doing e same thing.

I reall dunnno wat am i doing.
Tell myself not too.
But where's self-control?

GOD is this tt ur ans??
Go ahead.
Dun look back.
Forgive and forget e pass.
aaaargggggggggggggggg
Can i reject YOUR ans?
Can?
Pull mi along.
Dun let mi go.
:'(


Haven been sleeping well since wat happen.
I will wake up every1 hour seeing if i'm okay of i will have some funny dream.
I so scare to sleep.
I onli sleep in e day.
Juz cannot sleep at nite.

I know ppl keep asking am i okay?
Wat should my and be?
I'm so fake.
I'm learning to be more and more fake.

Am i gng to be like this?
Argggggggggggggg.

I dunno how to explain in word's.
It's abt e feeling.
How long can i fake other ppl.
How long can i fake myself?
How long can i fake my blog.
How long can i hide?
HOW LONG.

Guess i will juz hide in camp.

Had my AHM 6km run at east coast yesterday.
Not vex tired came back at around 25min.
After tt we had car'jr.
Toke a few photo.
But cannot post coz no cable or my com spoil cannot read e memory card.

Hmmm.

We start after this carpark near B1 near ford road.
It was pretty short.
Everyone came back by 30min mark.

Den wen to parkway by foot we seem's to be lose.
But ended up reach parkway.
Haha.
It was pretty fun gng out wif my platoon.
Hmmm. Will try to up load all e photo.

Ya.
Book out lorz.
Or
Haiz.
Booking out liao. Haiz. :'(

I dunno i suddenly said something to my friend and dey call my crazy.
Maybe i'm.

I had a busy and not vex good week.
Started wif some stock take on monday.
Everything wen wrong.
I cried but who's there.

On tuesday armskote everything wen well but......................
Haiz.
And after e check.
I was so happy,
I couldn't sleep.
I wanted to share my joy wif ppl.
But no wan was there
but
Onli pain from e past. :(
Alot of thing wen into my mind on tuesday nite.
Alot.
It was like a flash.
It was so fast tt i sad under my blanket.
I was so mixed up tt nite.
And i qus myself.
Did i do e rite thing.
Where are YOU wen i'm down.
Where are YOU wen i'm hurt.
You are no where to be found.
:'(
I can write pain wif my eyes close now.
Or maybe i'm full of pain.
Maybe it'z juz mi.

Or maybe, i have already forgot YOU helped mi before.
NOW listening to this song i played during 1 of my worship leaded my shuifeng jie.

This song is something like-
In ur LOVE noting is betta.
I wanna praise YOU.
I wanna rise YOUR name on high

Because YOU helped mi before.
I wanna re-joy under YOU.
My heart go closer to YOU and follow YOU.
YOU are my corner stone in life.


I dun think i pei de to call YOUR name.
Why am i alway like this.
I suck in life.
I guess "take a break".
Hiding away from u is e onli way i can see and do.

I will wait till someone pick mi up from e dark hole's in e wild.
Can i have a pic of my mind?
Can i have my own freedom?
Can i do wat i wan?
One's my pastor told mi we cannot.
But wat can i do now.
I dunno.
I'm really vex mixed up.

Why my past is so screw up.
Why i onli know how to complain?

WHERE ARE YOU?????????????????????????????????????
I WANNA YOU......................................
:'(

I have already ran out of tears.
I'm really vex dry up.
Someone give mi some water.


I guess i will juz hide in camp.
I have 101 reason to hide in camp.
Maybe after all e 101 reason finish le.
I be ok.
Haiz.

Wow. After a long long long break from church.
Haiz.
I have alot to express.
Dunno where to start from.
Start wif something good first.
Ya.
I think yuhan's playing improving.
She good.
Yap.
My playing also never drop.
Still need alot of playing and pract.
Cannot compair apple and pea.
Haha.
End of e day we all still fruit and grow from tree.
We love GOD and GOD love us.
Hehe.

Yap.
Alot ppl do care.
Yes my leg is gng to be gone soon. Haha.
Lumping around is not fun.
Vex painful.
Yes i ran 16km
And i having foot rod.

Hope i do have a new start coz i'm having abit of change in some place to other place but still in e same place. Hahaha
:x

And NOW bad stuff.
Haha

Hmmm. No money liao.
I dunno where all my money fly too.
Haha.
Gone juz like tt.
In camp can spend over $100.
Cannot belive rite.
haha
And i'm 72++kg le.
Fat liao.
Hehe.
Round liao.
Hohoo.

Hmmmm..
I told myself not to go look at ppl's blog.
But ended up.
Haha..
Finger never listen to brain.
haha.
Now vex mixed up again.
Haha.
Haiz
Still got along way to learn.
Many thing's to learn.
Learn is hard.

Wong JiaHui.
I know i can.
I know u clever boy.
God love's mi.
Yes i know.
Control.
Seek HIS kingdom.
You are lost, u know urself.
Stop smoking ppl,
coz u cannot smoke GOD.
HE can see.
I know it's hard for mi.
But u still have to learn.
This is e hard way.
Is this wat u need and looking for now?
No right.
Trust and have faith in GOD.
HIS e planner.
Haha.
:)
Get well soon jiahui.



Haha..
It's a letter from wong jiahui to wong jiahui.
:)

Haha.
I dunno i really love my camp or in camp time pass faster or wat.
haha
Everyday is juz like tt pass.
This few day's i made a number of few friend's.
haha.
1 of dem is good in playing guitar. Pro.
Haha..
Mr Sponge Bobby.
Who alway call mi water bottle. =.="

And
Many ppl who is also pro in chinese chess.
haha.

Actual life in camp is also fun.
It's how u look at it.
Time will fly if u enjoy it. Haha.

Busy and Stress.
4NTM
Stock take.
Less sleep.
DS.
And many more.

This is everything tt made mi go crazy.
But thank's LORD tt he hear my prayer.
HE hears my crying.
HE listens to mi.
HE love mi more den i love HIM.
HE never gave mi up.

Was doing some stock check in camp.
And i was super stress coz i was onli e wan who know's everything.
And e newbie's kept asking mi qus how to this and tt.
It really pisses mi off.
I'm a diff jiahui in camp.
I scold who ever i dun like in camp
I'm not like a human in camp.
:(
I'm sorry to those newbie i screwed. Haha.
Give mi sometime.
After this stock take.
Haha.

Hey.
Btw time really fly vex fast wen i'm busy.
It's gng to sept soon. Ya.
I'm gng to be 21 and freedom is mine.
Haha.
And after tt i'm gng oversea's.
haha.
Den so happy.
SO much thing's to look forward too during sept.
Muaha.