JH Wong

Blow blow blow. Have been ages since I wrote something and ages since I called HIS name.

It have been ages since I last wrote something in here.
I am totally speechless or rather wordless. I really don't know what to say.

I have gave up,
Give up everything even myself.
Things just happen happen and happen just right infront of me.
Feel so useless, feel so weak.

Have GOD already gave me up?
Where are YOU when I cried your name.
Where are your promises.

Always thinking why on earth ppl on TV always meet ppl who pass away?
Are this ppl crazy???
And only thought this will happen on TV series.

It's almost about 2 months my friend pass away.
And weeks and month before we are meeting up but I was busy with church.
Almost every friday I'm having worship practice.
And we kept postponing the meet up.
When I received the news when she pass away.
The first thought in my mind was she's joking.
But when many ppl texted and updated me, it was no longer a joke.
I told myself not to be affected by it.
But she was my very first close colleague, we use to bitch, play, slack, smoke, drink, play and many more together.
It maybe a very short time together.
I belief we have that connection, the very close friend connection.
It this very day I will still slap my face and ask myself why didn't I meet up with her.
She knew her condition and wanted to share.
But I choose to serve in some pointless ministries.

I really do miss her.
We had alot of stuff not done yet.
Stuff like getting fit together and many more.
Life is really very fragile
I have giving alot of my time to the worship team.
In return I had noting left.
Ppl may think I'm selfish, but I have noting to debate about.
You yourself try losing someone close and tell me how it feels.

Do you think the person next to you is fake?
Or maybe your best friend is just try to make use of you???

Yap I do.
Was think about what happen last few week.
One we can stand up there sharing what happen to his/her life how touching isit.
But is that real??

Why share only the the icying of the the cake???
You should share the whole pic or even the whole cake.
If you have the face to stand up there cry and say how GOD touch your life.

By doing that you just wan frame.
You just want ppl to know who are you and make ppl think you are so poor thing.

Will you can say who am I to comment all this.
Yap. Who am I??
I'm who I am and will never be who others wants me to be.
I speak for what is correct and stand-up for what I know is correct.
I'm a sinner to I sin.
But the diff between me and you is when I repent I will never do that again.

I'm always point my fingers at those who leave GOD for whatever reason it is.
I told myself that it will not and never happen to me ever.
But after last night, image and picture flash into me.
It's not that I no longer belief in HIM.
I think its just the disappointment that ppl who worked for HIM.

Many may think that I'm an asshole how could I say or hurt someone without thinking.
But to those who say that, Look into the mirror before saying.
You are no different from me.

Well, I guess live was never fair.
Just like what happen years back.
There is no happy ending.
Fairy Tales are all lies.
What for work so hard to please everyone.

Fairy Tales are all bullshit!!!!
Evil always win.
Ball/boot licker alway succeed.

Disappointment disappointment and more disappointment.
Maybe its just time to seek what I'm always trying to find.
A place where there is less disappointment.
A place that no one know you.
A place that I do not need to commit.
A place where I am nobody.

I cannot do much but just pray.
Just pray for something happen.

你笑着说
他是朋友
但你眼中太温柔
我的不安
那么沉重
只有你不懂

他霸占了你的心中
属于我的角落
所以你说
我们不是你和我

是我想太多
你总这样说
但你却没有真的心疼我

是我想太多
我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由

他霸占了你的心中属于我的角落
所以你说我们不是你和我

是我想太多
你总这样说
但你却没有真的心疼我

是我想太多
我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由

我想我没有错怪了什么
虽然你不说或许错在我
太晚我才懂爱了你太多

是我想太多
你总这样说
但你却没有真的心疼我

是我想太多
我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由

Have u ever feel what you are doing is like wasting time? But when u wanna leave something somehow or somewhere will popped out from no where. Really miss the good old days in Believer Muisc. When back to meet afriend of mine at BM. The good old crazy fun play i use to work. And looking forward to work everyday. The pay wouldn't high. But the company i had was more then high. Why is it only the good memory stays. As in i do have my bitter days amd moment there. But i only remember the sweet stuff and staff. ((: I really miss the place. Really really miss that place. Sometimes letting the good memory stay as at it is will be better. Coz not many place or memory will always stay or end this the happy way. Be in its a work relationship or friendship or what ever ship.

Wowowwwwww. Lady luckyis so not with me. )): Will lets try again.

I wanna take to make my own huaraches!!!!!!

I am just LOVE-ing what I have now!!!

I am lose for words.

I dun really know what i want now.
Do this but that cannot.
Do that but this cannot.
Haiz.

Where's the faith I use to have?

It's "Good Friday" / Easter Day soon.

Just popping this few qus in mind.
Why do we/I celebrate this day?
What so good about it that we call it Good Friday?

Yes i know about easter some funny wried looking bunny going around giving people eggs.
Sharing the the gift of joy.

But what about Good friday?
Coz Jesus dead on that day?

So where did the tradition of Good Friday start? Well, for the first three centuries Christians did not celebrate the death of Christ on Friday. In fact, they did not even celebrate the resurrection on Sunday. They celebrated the day of the resurrection based on the Jewish Passover, thus resurrection day would fall on different days, depending on the day of the Passover.
It wasn’t until the Emperor Constantine fixed the day of Easter on Sunday after the first full moon of spring, which corresponded to the Jewish Passover. After setting Easter on Sunday, the church leaders made an honest mistake by assuming the death of Christ was on Friday. They came to that conclusion based on the fact that Jesus died before the Sabbath (Saturday was the regular "Sabbath" for the Jews which means "Rest" or no work). Mark 15:42 confirms that Jesus died the day prior to the Sabbath: It was Preparation Day (that is, the day before the Sabbath).

We say we follow was God want us to do but how many out there really know the true and can take the true??
If we dun even know the real meaning of that day why celebrate??
The only good about that day is could it's a Friday and its HOILDAY!!!

So was really looking at how my own church celebrate that day.
I was once like them happly enjoying that day going church.
And been teach that jesus die on that day he save us.
He love us.
Then we have to go throught watch passion of the christ again.
Seeing how Jesus was wiped.
The blood the pain.
Making ppl fear.

And we are alway been told by our pastor.
Do it for GOD not for us.
But how many hearts can do that?
Act's speak louder then words.

I may sound like some anti-chirst dude.
But if this post hurts you.
Then I think you should re-ask yourself is what I'm saying true?

Shalom, YHWH bless.

Wowwwwww.

It haven been an easy week for me.
Catching up with sch, work and illness.
But something i really enjoy was the trip to bali.

Will be back to bali again.
If i get to find cheaper tickets.
((=